The moment this dog said a final goodbye to his owner is absolutely shocking. The day every owner dreaded came for john Poynter, the Austin texas, based musician, who had to say goodbye to his best friend dog benny.
The nine-year boxer mix apparently suffered from cardiomyopathy or abnormal heart cancer and kidney failure, and on January 28th his owner made the tough decision to end benny’s suffering and have him put to sleep after his best friend passed away, Poynter penned a letter to help him cope, Told through benny’s eyes the note shares the love benny’s owner had for him and how much the dog appreciated.
Along with the heartbreaking final moments, they had to say goodbye in the Facebook note. Titled yesterday was weird pointer states unless you’re, a robot you’ll need a box of kleenex a non-public place and a friend to hug in order to survive this ordeal.
If you can’t find a friend hug, a stranger yesterday was a weird day. I couldn’t get myself out of bed the guy i live with, lift me up. I tried to get my legs under me, but they wouldn’t cooperate. He said, don’t worry, i got you. Buddy carried me downstairs and out the front door.
That was so nice of him. I needed to pee so badly. I just had to go right there where he put me down. Normally, i wouldn’t, but we both decided to make an exception to the rule. I started walking down the parking lot toward that place where all the dogs like me, go to poop.
I felt my paws dragging on the ground. How strange i thought then suddenly i just had to go really badly in the middle of the parking lot. Normally, i wouldn’t do that. It’S against the rules, my person cleaned up the mess he’s good at that. I felt embarrassed looked at him and he said want to keep walking buddy.
I did, but it was surprisingly tough by the time we reached the end of the parking lot. My head was spinning. I tried to climb the little hill and nearly fell over. I couldn’t figure out what was going on. He reached down again and ran his hands over me that felt good.
He picked me up and carried me home. I was still confused and my head was light, but i was glad not to have to walk all the way back. It suddenly seemed like an impossible distance. I was so glad to lay down on my bed my person petted me saying i got you covered buddy. I got you, i love the way that makes me feel i know he does.
He makes everything better. He felt my pause and pulled up my lip and he said oh buddy you’re cold, i was my face, was cold. My paws were cold. He texted a few people and came back to pet me. A few minutes later.
Another person arrived he’s one of my favorites and his name is jay. He petted me and said to my person: do you want to get a blanket? They put a blanket over me and wow that felt good. I relaxed and they both petted me, but they both started to choke back tears. I never want them to cry.
It breaks my heart, it’s my job to make them feel better, and i was just a little tired and cold. I drifted in and out of sleep and they were always there making sure i was okay and chatted with each other. Throughout the day my person made some phone calls and spent a lot of time with me. I heard him say: 9 am tomorrow. Ok, yes i’ll tell you if anything, changes.
Thank you, dr mcdonald. He called someone else and said: i’m sorry i have to cancel tonight. Then i was drifting off to sleep. I think i heard him cry a little again in the evening. More of my favorite people came by, they were all so loving.
I licked their tears away when they could get close enough to my face. They whispered sweet things in my ear and told me, i was a good boy later in the evening. I felt well enough to stand up and walk to the door to see who was coming in. It was more exhausting than i’d remembered it being, but i loved seeing them all. I heard my person say something like that’s the first time he’s gotten up under his own power today.
Everyone seemed glad that i was out of bed. I was too but wow after the excitement wore off. It was so exhausting to move around after the last visitor left. My person took me outside to do what he called my business. We went back inside and when we reached the bottom of the stairs, they looked twice as steep and 10 times.
As long as i remembered them being i looked at my person, he looked at me and said: don’t worry, i got you buddy and he carried me up. Then it got even better. Instead of sleeping in my bed, he called me up to sleep on his bed. Let me repeat: i got to sleep in the bed with my person. We normally have our own beds, but last night we snuggled and it felt so good to be that close to him.
I thought this is where i belong i’ll, never leave his side. I didn’t feel very well, though, and it was hard to breathe. Sometimes it seemed like it started. A few months ago we were playing fetch and i just blacked out. I don’t know what happened, but i think i stopped breathing.
I could hear my person calling my name. I couldn’t move a muscle, he lifted my head and looked into my eyes. I could see him right there, but couldn’t lick his face. He said benny are you in there? I couldn’t respond.
He looked at me and said: don’t worry, buddy, i got you, i got you covered. I started to spin into darkness, but then my lungs took in a deep breath and i could see again want to see some doctors and since then i’ve heard a lot of words like cardiomyopathy cancer and kidney failure. All i know is that sometimes i feel okay, and sometimes you know i just don’t. My person gives me pills this morning. I heard my person get up and take a shower.
He came back in the room and smelled so nice. He helped me get up, but this time i could do it on my own. We got to the top of the stairs and wow. They looked long and steep again. He said i got you buddy and carried me down.
I did my business and we came back inside. He opened a can a really really delicious can of wet dog food. Oh man, i love that stuff. Jay showed up again what a nice surprise. He and my person seemed concerned, but everyone was petting me.
It seemed a little like a play where all the actors were sad but pretending to be happy pretty soon. After that, another person showed up. She was wearing doctor pants and i leaned on her. I heard them talk. Everyone looked at my gums and felt my paws.
I heard the dr pants lady say it’s your decision, but he’s definitely in that window. I don’t want to push you, but looking at his lack of color, i’m honestly shocked he’s even standing up in addition to the paws and jowls look here. She pointed at my face. This should be pink. It’S almost white and verging towards yellow my person and jay went inside to talk about something when they came back out.
I heard my person say i agree. I don’t want to wait until he’s in absolute agony, so we went inside truth be told. I was feeling pretty badly, even though i was up and walking it seemed like my whole, head was cold, my paws were freezing and my back legs weren’t working right. The doctor pants lady said i’ll just put this into his muscle. It’S a sedative, then i’ll come back over here and you can just love on him until he’s asleep.
My person kissed my face and looked in my eyes. He was trying not to cry dr pant’s lady gave me a shot of something in the leg. I just looked at my person he’s so awesome i’ll always be right by his side. He and jay petted me and said the nicest things. What a good dog i am, what a good job i’ve done, how thankful they are to have me in their lives.
After a while my mind, started buzzing focus. I look back at my person. I love him so much. I drifted again focus. I can see my person, i love him so much.
I will always be right by his side. He knows that. Am i sleepy focus. I always look at him with my whole heart, dr pant’s lady said he must have had an incredible will to stay with. You he’s really powering through that’s impressive, my person choked back tears and said.
I know this guy lives. For me he is the most devoted soul. I’Ve ever met, we put our heads together and closed our eyes. It felt good. I can’t really describe it.
We looked at each other again, i just felt like riding that buzz, but maybe lying down was better. My person helped me down man that felt good. I felt him and jay petting me and heard them talking to me. They loved me so much. How lucky am.
I then i felt thousands of hands. Petting me, everyone i’d ever known and loved. Was there petting me scratching my ears and that spot under my collar? That makes my leg move. Everyone should try this, it’s just amazing.
Then i felt the dr pants lady touch. My leg did i tell you that my person had to have both of my knees, repaired, they’re, titanium and have served me well, but you know i’ve been feeling a little creaky lately with everyone. Petting me, the dr pants lady put another needle in my leg, but this time as the fluid went in my legs were healed, my knees were perfect and i felt it moved through my body, my cancer disappeared and then my kidneys felt better. And finally, even my heart was whole and healthy. I felt like i’d sprung away from all of my sickness amazing.
I saw my person and jay and the lady who lives at our house shelley. They seem to be huddling over something i walked over to look. It seemed like, i don’t know it kind of looked like me, but the way i looked when i was feeling really sick or exhausted. The face was blurred out, so i couldn’t really tell but that poor guy looked like he’d been suffering. I could tell my person was both relieved and very, very sad.
I love him so much. I looked at that me shaped shell and i looked at him. I think he was sad about that shell. I jumped around the room like a clown, but it seemed like they wanted to be somber and focus on whatever that thing was they were petting and kissing, but my person was definitely sad. I leaned on him like i’ve done a million times before, but it wasn’t quite the same.
It felt like his body was a cloud and i passed right through him, so i walked up next to him and sat like a good boy and my heart whispered to his. Don’T worry. Buddy i’ve got you covered i’ll, never leave his side. He knows that, thanks for reading.